i wanna swear

im not picking up any calls, im supposed to but i have no interest in speaking for the sake of speaking today. just today, let me get a break from making someone else happy just because i don't want them to feel the heartache i feel. today, i just want to dwell in my own grief. im turning off my phone, logging off facebook, signing off msn. today, i just want to drown in my own tears. fed up with forcing myself to pick up calls, to laugh at things that just aint that funny, to put efforts into something that should come effortlessly-a smile.
i feel motherfucking shit
i feel motherfucking bored
i feel motherfucking cold
i feel motherfucking sick
i feel motherfucking regretful
i feel motherfucking .. inlove.
i fucking miss just one stupid motherfucker.
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