dont know.

我已经不知道要怎么去面对了。
心里好痛好痛，
为什么爱情不能简简单单的呢？
为什么我相信的在一夜之间就可以完全没有了呢
真的会很难过。
好像我的理智和心带着我走两条不同的路
而我，总是拿么傻傻的听着心里的声音。
我的爱， 多么努力地去爱，给得那么多，那么纯
又换来的是什么？
伤害自己， 好像我自己是不会痛的一样
我告诉你实话，是一种多么重的信任和respect for you
我为你说谎，只是多么的想保护你
这些你不会懂
不用你懂
连我自己都不懂。



okayyy, whatever i said above,
id eventually get over it
cos afterall its love..


when my world crashes down on me
the only way to get through it is to carry the weight mysellf


-lucy.

FLIP TO A NEW CHAPTER

mm~
just finished off doing 2 hours of commerce homework
wow. come to think of it, i havent been hw-ing for so long
recenlty there's been so many changes in my life
everything i thought i knew ,
my own sense of directions,
what to me was right
what to me was wrong
has all been shifted upside-down



but its never too late right
to start all over again
accept my own life, situation rents has set on me
to start accepting who i am
who i will be in time
to make the choices i think are right



thanQ to all that loveees me for who i always am inside
yous know who you are
<3



luccy just wants to start fresh& new
its time to move to a new chapter
be thankful bout lifee and stop complaining =)
this is all i got; but i can still give my best shot.


-LUCYbay

perfection

currently listening to RAINBOW by jay chou laa

fuck i lovee the lyrics

I SAWW JUSTIN YESTERDAY yo ^____^

ya this bit for yuu justin :LL

i swear u shouldve just missed the train and talked to luccy

but no~~~~~~ home was more attractive aye TT''

oh wellll. im still happy chappy i got to see my nerdddi bro

and its truee, your currently stessing bout yearlies? 8D

anyways. my current location is bluetooth net cafe again

zomg..... its.... 12.47am in the morningg

pulling all nighter with bay <3

lucy's feeling better la; need to say thanQ to bel

ty forr being there when i cried my eyes out

yup thanks for givinggg me tissues, i mean.. toilet rolls >.>

lovee yuu lovee yuu =D

im finally not feeling confused anymore

i just realised ive got the best anyone could ever ask for

and why not just be satisfied la =))

im truly madly deeply happy right now~

the love i give & recieve is so pure

when two people fight just cos they care way too much

everthing little thing the other person does feels like a life& death situation

yess; i guess thats the only reason why ive been doubting

cos this love is too perfect and flawless

<3

-LUCYbay

p.s- bay fell asleep on me = =''

loveyuubayy <3

dont really know what to do atm..

is craigyyy gonna read this? nah.. he dont go online atm

just blog feelings then

sorry bayy.. sent that txt to you today

i was acting tough on the phone again

inside i was breaking down

cant do it, i just cant. .

sometime i wanna be just myself,, i wanna stay silent,, i wanna get rid of the smile on my face and fall into grieve; silence; pain. just like that

but how could i do that to you bay.. thats why i sent that txt

yuu really might not understand

but i know deep inside you will

cos yeah, yur not JUST my babyy, your my soulmate.. my family.

i lovee you. forevr

sorrrry about this period

im too weak to take the pain parents set on me .

-LUCYbay

BREAKDOWN

lucy is sleeping like a child right now.
with a fist next to her face
this is bel at 2.28
sorry for writing in this space without permission.
lucy was going to blog but shes too tired
i think letting herself cry might have made her feel better

bel will be here all the way

goodnight bay

lalala.

本小姐现在在bel家里大吃大喝=DD

然后两个人还不睡觉。 aka - INSOMNIA = =''

不过没事，反正都是免费的（：

i might start living with belle .

i think daddy lets anyways,

gonna be so HECTIC i swear =)))

but。。

FUCK

I MISS CRAIGY 。。

this linee is for you hun (okay i understand that you dont know chink but TRY to read this =)

"看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着？''

im not used to this

@ nights like right now..

i should be covering you with a jacket gently

should be staring at your v. v peaceful sleeping face (ITS CUTEE ! )

@ nights like this ..

i need our usual goodnight speech

L: i love you bayy =)

C: me too =))

-both asleep-

i need your arm to lean on, thats my pillow for 14 days 。。 ><

我能自己走。。

但我的手心还有和你牵手后的余温，

就算放开

你给的感动再也不会离开我

十四天的点点滴滴

不想对你说谢谢，

因为你明白

我的爱

<3

goodnight bay

-LUCYbay

LAST DAY <3

0018 Bluetooth Cafe .

aye im gna make this blog different from the rest ;;

ill try not to crack jokes on how retarded and speddy lucy has been acting for the last 14 days..

the last 14 days have been the best holidays ive ever had in my last 16 yrs of life (Y)

336

thats the number of fucking hours ive spent with lucy NONE STOP =)

no exaggerations ive LITERALLY spent that long with lucy

and guess what ? ;D

im not sick of her even the slightest bit .

right now i have a billion thoughts running through my head ..

how do i leave lucys side after these 2 weeks ?

how can i survive normal life when right now i still want more of her even though ive practically been attatched to her for every moment in the whole holiday .

=( so sad .

BABEEEEE stop falling asleep on me =(

anyway i gotta thank you for being here for me all this time

ill never forget these moments ive spent with you

ill reminise this holiday and the billions of experiences we've shared together .

from having dinner on the top of centre point tower

to getting piss drunk in star city .

FUCK I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHHH

baby dont worry ;;

im sure you'll survive when you get home .

ill still be here for you

its just that i wont be in arms reach 24/7

but im just a phone call away =)

you can lean on me cry on me sleep on me

sleep with me ;D and anything you desire .

i hope you've realised in these 2 weeks how much i fucking love you .

this trip has made us grow up so much more and we've learnt to survive off little money and have a fucking great time .

babe i can gurantee you that trips like this are only the beginning ;;

im ready to give you my all and so much more .

one day you'll probs have so many memories of being with me that you'll start forgetting some =(

babe ill show you things you didn't know existed.

ill take you to places you've never seen .

ill let you feel things that you cant imagine .

and most of all ill let you touch places nobody else is allowed to go ;D

woahhhhhh im slow at blogging or maybe i had too many cigarettes inbetween =LL its been half n hour since i started writing =LLL

anyway finishing this blog :

DAY 9: lucy got sick of a book store so she decided that a library was a better place to sleep in .

DAY 10: BLACK OUT

DAY 11: hangover . lucy looked half dead with a missing shoe . . again . . =\\\\

DAY 12: lucy uses xbox 360 controller as a vibrator =LLLLL

DAY 13: LUCY LOST HER FUCKING PURSE . but i still love her =)))

DAY 14: sorry nothing interesting has hapenned in the last hour =(((

but im gna fucking miss lucy so much. our last day of this what seemed like "never ending" holiday =) iloveyoulucy.

BTW im sorry lucy for punching you in the face . =L

i hope your cheeks okay . =)

it was an accident .

happy 1 month and 14 days and 1 hour and 6 mins .

loving you every moment .

=)

- craig .

LAST DAY <3

sooooo

this is the report from the currently dissapeared LUCYY =D

im finee everyonee

homeless for 14 days feels alright

(minus the sleeping at staircase bit =='')

but.....

its the last day tommorrow

after tomrw

its back to normal life again.

which, i admit, i miss, i need

but...

its easy to tear up just thinking about this holiday ending

its been so different, so difficult, so fun, so goddam addicting

when you've spent 24 hours with a person.. not exageration, i mean... LITERALLY 24 HOURS straight for 14 days..

how do yuu possibly seperate at the end?

when you've been spoilt to the max all this time

& by this i dont mean materialistically spoilt

cos hahahaha bay we both KNOW we've been pretty broke :LL

..when this all ends

who do i lean on when i need a cry?

who do i go to when im hungry (not that i will be when i go home)?

who do i hug to keep warm?

who's hand do i hold on to when my heals are making me trip....?

who do i call when the fatttttt assssss lady tried to hit me?

who do i go through life with day in day out

?

thanks bay, everthing, every word.

meh, i'll live i guess .. ):

"i love you but" (:

-LUCYbay

8 Days <3

WOAH

sorry the 8 day late reply babe =L dont kill me <3
anyway i am currently at tonys place =)))

I HAVENT BEEN HOME FOR LIKE A WEEK =OOOO

anyway just to let the whole bloody world know ive spent
EVERY

hour

minute

second

and moment WITH LUCY <3

well this is the life .
IM SO FUCKING TIRED T.T


lucy is currently staring at me lying on tonys couch =L
falling asleep like a baby.

LAST NIGHT she fell asleep on a staircase and so many people saw her...
at 3am..


and 4am ....

O_____________________O





OKAY for whoever actually reads this =L
in the last 8 days.........



DAY 1: lucy was being retarded

DAY 2: lucy was acting high =LL

DaY 3: lucy running around with one shoe.

DAY 4: lucy running around with no shoes.

DAY 5: lucy buys a new pair of shoes =L

DAY 6: lucy starts singing flow ridar O_____________________________O

DAY 7: lucy sleeps outside bookstore

DAY 8: lucy sleeps outside adult bookstore

and for the whole time i was right by her =DDD





NB: lucy & vivian are bitching behind me =L







i love lucy =)
this has been an unforgetable holiday that ill never forget .
THANK YOU BAY FOR EVERYTHING .
lucys waiting for me in bed . =L




GOOD NIGHT .

<3 craig .

HAPPY ONE MONTH <3

LOL

this is soo stupid.

im like using kelvin's comp atm to blogg =D

we're sleeping over at teddy kelvin's place ^^

HAPPY ONE MONTH BAY <3

ill keep the memories in my heart for long long long

you're something special baby.

had so much fun with you todayy

pancakes on rocks was yummmmy

i liked the pizza > actual pancakes though >:D

thankyou for the moviee

thankyou for the uber ASIAN karaokee

&& last but not least

thankyouu for the dinner at freakin CENTER POINT TOWER =D

omggg i felt fucking spoilt by you

we're like eating yummy food 200m above gound

and the restruant was rotating in a circle

the view was sumthing SEXYY

200 meters above ground i say it out loud

"I LOVE YOU CRAIG ;D"

& yup i fucking mean it.

okayy now im gonna go sleep hor horr

3 ppl squeeshing on the same bed T_T''

-LUCYbay

(currently lonely cos bay&kelvin are doing card tricks =.='')

karaokeee crazy

hor hor ^^
lucy had heaps of speddy fun today
we went kay at show
sumhow, lasted 6 hours =.=''
cept it was really HIGH and shitt
and i kissed cookie OH YEAH BABY =D
(oooops sorry craiggy bby, iloveeyoutoo!)

song dedi to to-be-hubby-maggie: SEXY LOVE.

:LL

& a note to ****:
i have no respect for you left after today.
learn to respect and be dedicated to one person when you even try a relationship.
yes you pissed me off
real bad (:

-LUCYbay

p.s - iloveeyoubby, thanks for the opera house exp today =D although we kinda got lost >.> but we made it at the end! <3