PEPPERLUNCH

okay everyone, PEPPERLUNCH looks something like this:
I LOVE IT SO FUCKING MUCH!!!! (ok that explains why im posting about a plate of rice =__=)
i suggest everyone who reads this blog to go try it, the shop is actually called PepperLunch in townhall george st.
ive grown this scary addiction towards it, i think about eating it first thing in the morning, last thing before i sleep, and constantly during the dayy. its like a legal drug that i still cant afford T_T
i seriously wonder if they fucking spike my plate and put heroine inside .__.
my love for this shit goes way beyond saving up for a favorate thing, if i could, i might as well shove a fishnet stocking on my head and barge into the nearest 711 with a water gun, ..and ask them for 8 buks =))))))
someone wanna shout me? x) ill be enternally grateful. & i swear pepperlunch should give me free shit, this is like advertising ;D

lots& lots of droools, lucyyy

black& white

blogging about someone that ive grown close to recently =))
im sure we've talked in year 7, i have a vague impression of you.
im sure we were friends in year 8, never too close but you were one of the nicest through my rough patches.
& now we're close buddies :P
ill be very very honest with you and say that it takes a lot for me to warm up to one & love them. but you've grown on me, and i can honestly say that i love youu my friend x)
remember that one time in year 8, where you came to a party with us and had a lil too much to drink? i was a little weakling and cried when i saw yu getting piggybacked down the hill, holding a pair of tiny heels, i swear they were veryyy small heels, have no idea how you managed to fail at walking in them :LL tbh that day i was heaps shocked when i saw you in heels and a skirt, you looked so pretty but i somehow prefered the you that could jump around in your converse and comfy jeans; your honest smile and 'kiddish' comments that always made me laugh. so it hurt me to see you change for a party; it hurt me to see you the least bit tipsy; it hurt me when you showed the slightest sign of becoming me.
but everytime we speak, you teach me somthing, like how i dont need to hide who i am; like how i dont need to impress anyone; how you accepting some things doesnt mean you agree to it. thats the best thing about you, you accept me although you dont agree with me. and i have lots of faith that you will always be the strange happy creature i know, you'll always tell me whats right but you wont judge me, you'll always be a true friend that i can keep, & you'll always read my blogs and tell me "its poetic but depressing!"
maybe we were like black and white, but who said we couldnt blend? who sed grey wasnt a nice colour? ;D

with lots of love, lucyy.

ps. like the limegreen font? im thoughtful arent i x))

SAND CASTLES

i was at the beach today, not the thing to do in winter, i know, but thats who i am, i go against the right things :P
the scenery was beautiful, i sit right on what lots of people would probably only see in postcards, and my heart drifts very far, way beyond that horizon.
i soon realise that happiness may only last a few seconds, if lucky like i were today, a few hours even. after enjoying everything, the clean air, the sky, the warm sand and baking next to larissa, reality kicked in. what is reality? we had a heated discussion on how we should face reality but when it struck, neither of us could rebel it. we rebel our school, our parents and even friends, but we cannot rebel this one thing-reality. reality is ourselves, our life, who we have became.
i saw kids running around making sand castles, gorgeous creatures they were, they had eyes that reflected the clean sky. then i hear lar ask me "what does sand remind you of?"
"love" i say, "when yu grasp it too tight, it leaks out of your palm"
"time" she adds, "time and everything else that'll dissappear eventually"
why can't we be like the kids anymore? where reality was just, who built the tallest sandcastle.

after the conversation we put on makeup, wore our heels, and left whatever sand meant right behind us..

randoms =)

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?

darlingharbour.

2. Who are you in love with?

im not INlove, but i do love someone

3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?

the closest to that was playdough

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

my pjs, ipod shuffle, pillow, blankets & a soft toy

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?

today =)

6. Are you wearing socks right now?

stockings

7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?

someday i will :P

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?

dont drive T___T YET

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?

yes, KARATEE KIDDD =DDDD

10. Are you hot?

no? LOL

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?

wine

12. What are you wearing right now?

singlet, skirt, coat & stockings

13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?

i used to wash mums car =)

14. Last food that you ate?

pouridge >___>

15. Where were you last week at this time?

um um um dont remember but out somewhere, cityy?

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?

nope, broke ):

17. When is the last time you ran?

FOR THE TRAIN x)

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?

haha. nice joke, um, i watched fifa like, at darlinghabour

19. What is your favorite animal?

humans ftw

20. Your dream vacation?

somewhere apart from realityy :P anything close to nature.

21. Last person's house you were in?

larissa's

22. Worst injury you've ever had?

scraped kneee :L

23. Have you been in love?

yes

24. Do you miss anyone right now?

yes ofc

25. Last play you saw?

high school muscial :P

26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?

ooooo~~~ my boddaaay :LLL nah jokes i have no idea .__.

27. What are your plans for tonight?

gonna get SOME sleep.

28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?

dont have that shit :L

29. Next trip you are going to take?

probably to china >.>

30. Ever go to camp?

YES =) actualy camp in the wild bro.

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?

yes, in primaryy.

32. What do you want to know about the future?

would it be somewhat better than now..

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?

nope =) i stink :P

34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?

nah.

35. Where is your best friend?

i dont have a 'bestfriend' but close one is probs at her house :L

36. How is your best friend?

very tired and sick of life :L

37. Do you have a tan?

nahh, but im dark i think

38. What are you listening to right now?

没那么爱他- fan wei qi.

39. Do you collect anything?

i used to collect different 50cent coins, but i used it all >.>

40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?

hahahaha one of my friends.

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?

dont driveee!

42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?

LOL all the time.

43. What does your last text message say?

kerry: I cant be bothered. Lol! I still feel a tad wierd:S that normal?

44. Do you like hot sauce?

no opinion , i like my mustard sauce :P

45. Last time you took a shower?

yday

46. Do you need to do laundry?

nup, only my personal stuff like undies :L

47. What is your heritage?

chinese ftw~~~

48. Are you someone's best friend?

i hope =)

49. Are you rich?

AHAHAHAH no.

50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?

talking on the phone.

to my 'brother

i met someone lately, and he's one of the nicest ppl ive ever came across in my life. he's smart, kind, good-looking even. most importantly, he loves me, and i too, love him. just the wrong kind. im writing this blog so if one day he came across this, he will understand the meaning behind the foggy actions of mine. i will always love him, as a friend, as a brother, as family. maybe in time, he will be something more. but i cannot promise anything. thankyou for your love though, it really means something to me. hopefully one day, you'll see me as a sister .

you're out of the picture.

does crying help anything, anyone? all i get from doing so is swollen eyes for a day, a headache plus a heartache. i broke down that night, i know that i made myself do so, i needed to cry so badly. i can't live with recording all my emotions in a diary, or swollowing my love down. cos dear, i packed everything away in a box. two tickets, a shirt, couple of coins, two diaries and every piece of scratch that ever belonged to that word- 'us'. everything tangible, i can pack into a box, but do you remember our conversation? me"why dont you use this money yur spending on dinner and everything else, on a present for me instead? it'll cost yu less and i get to keep sumthing!" you"one day you'll know, presents can be chucked away, memories cant, i want you to remember." well guess what? i do, i remember every little detail between us. im trying my best to go forward, but i end up hurting everyone on the way. you're not the guy that loved me most, you're not the guy that i wished for. but you're the one that gave me so many of those memories you were talking about. thanks but no thanks. i tried to hate you, but i cant. i cant love you either. i know you're pretty inlove with gg so you will know this line right "chuck's a part of me, he'll always be." just change the 'chuck' to your name and thats how i feel. ive had enough of it though, ive had enough of toturing myself for you. so ive decided to chuck the box, and keep the memories locked away in a piece of forever. i realised that ive been stupid to think id forget you, ever, but what i can do is, keep the past, in the past. i hope you're happy, you seem to be =) i will be too, as much as it hurts me to say, the world opend wider with you out of the picture.

my tears ran out, so did the love.

my dreams & the stranger

my dreams,,
i have many, they're all weird in their own way. i used to dream about flyying, but im losing those these days. i havent been able to grow wings and feel the wind blowing on my face for a while. And then there were million about the loved one, i would wake up with tears & try to fall asleep again, the dream stops there, i wish it'd continue. Then i really wake up, look around, it's another school day, dreams would never be more than dreams, reality demands so much more. Rainbows & butterflies? fucck that, I gotta answer my alarm clock.

to the stranger;
everyone is no more than strangers when they first know, so it's funny how some get so close, too close, & others remain no more than prejudice. I was on the train today, looking around, everyone carried a tired face sumwhat, there was a BIG man LOL with a beer belly; a middle aged lady reading MX; a hot ass chick dressed in full black and had hair i wanted badly. It was easy to judge, but who knows, they all carry a different story, and it's a miracle itself that we would be in that very same carriage, heading to different directions, into our own lives. to all the people i just aint lucky enough to meet yet, hope everything goes well, stay true to yur heart, love, & im sure yu'll be loved =)