MONDAY

ITS A MONDAAY.

&& i havent blogged for ages.

ive been busy lately =))

photos of me & my new stuff!

ohhh im just so obssed with leprod print atm =DDDDD

&

yepppp. thats me ^ (i look old =O)

mondays are not kool. srsli.

exept for going for my weekily coffeee at pumpkin =DDD

but this stupid maniac dude took my lil pink flashyyy lighter n wouldn't give it bak T.T

srsli the world's hot guys have extinct, all that left is BIG dudes with annoying voices, lar, yu know what im talking about :LL

on a more positive notee, i also owe gary bro a coffee xD, shout him when im rich again :P sighhh hows that positive anyways =/ =D

right now imma listening to 猜不透 by 丁噹.

im so used to 得过且过 .

i wish all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away.

why can't it, why can't it just f*** off and not follow me? im happy right now, empty but happy LOL

who can really live a life to the fullest, people always want more, more & more. why can't everyone just be satisfied, why cant I be happy with what i have?

i have everything i need, really, the best friends in the universe, a nerdy but GOOD skool, loving family, and love life, well fuck the love life for now LOL. i should be satisfied. life is short n awesome.

but this huge black hole in my heart, what do i fill it with :LL

cotton?

kayyy no more depressing talks. this is the monday story of a girl.

seeeyus laterz =D

p.s larrr& bec, these two chicks made my day. as usual. :LL

-luccy

who are yu.

sometimes id rather just wake up

and pooof~

nice dream. just a dream =))

4th-

i shouldn't, but let me be depressing for once :L

its the 4th tomrw. im.. cant say hate, just scared of this date

i started and ended everything, well, what used to be everything on this day

and both of em, were my very own choice.

i ought to not regret a single decision ive made

i try not to anyways..

but this is a special blog, given just to this date. The 4th.

september the 4th- i fell inlove with this date, i grew up on this day, there was beautiful coffee with two sugars.

october the 4th- i was at the centre of sydney, lots above the ground, i laughed, loved, smiled, my heart pounded to a realistic beat al the way til nightfall, and beyond .

november the 4th- peace, a world of peace, i enjoyed every part of life. i smiled when you smiled, cried when you cried. joyful to just watch the world grow up.

then things started getting wrong, really wrong.

december the 4th- i tore the fairytale apart myself, lots of regrets, no going back. the city lights contrasted with my tears, only mine.

january the 4th- i blocked any thought that went through my head, i was smiling that day, my heart at a steady rate, but i couldnt feel my heartbeat.

tommorrow, feb the 4th- i will smile, i will laugh, i will do everything in the correct order, i will learn, i will live, my heart will be pounding, brain working, id be alive.

for the many upcoming 4th,

im ready, and let me get better.

sick of not having a heartbeat; sick of leaving blanks in my diary; sick of hating; sick of missing; sick of love songs and sick of remembering.

let me be better.

let me actually feel this summer?

-bay.