thanks !

listening to a really sweet song atm

"its amazing how you can speak right to my heart

without saying a word you can light up the dark

try as i may, i can never explain, what i hear when you dont say a thing

the smile on your face, lets me know that you need me

there's a truth in your eyes saying you'd never leave me

the touch of your hand, says you'll catch me wherever i fall ."

=DDD srsli just going ngawww to this song :P

so lemme just dedicate those lines to everyone thats been there all along

time to really put the past down

this time i know i can do it.

thanQ to all my bestest friends (including my hubbi)

love it how you guys just all send me those cute texts at the same time

cept they made my phone lagg :LL

& Gary bro sorrry i didnt even save your number & called yuu a stalker T.T

i lovee you all (:

and to my awesomest bunch at skool , woah skool finished already !

but you guys will be there all holiday im suree .

sorrrry for chucking a lil bitch these days ):

& refusing to go where we spend half our lifes together - the canteen :P

i just weren't feeling that well, but you guys got lucy back now (:

i'll be happier as the days go pass, time can heal anything

then eventually i'd be back to my crazy self, be ready for it ; D

`thats a [promise]

this blogg is dedicated to every single person thats been there all along; id be nothing without yous ;)

always be my baby

im currently listening to 'always be my baby'

&& trusting but finding the lyrics very ironic

one line i agree to though

time cant erase a feeling this strong..

just agreeing to that, the rest of the song is too.. confident haha.

missing you.

rest of forever.

life goes on

even after the heartbreaks

still gotta keep smiling right

shedding tears is okay

but its not okay to keep crying

holding on is okay

but its not okay to beg for it

getting drunk is okay

but its not okay to escape forever in that unrealistic dizziness

although right now

all i feel is numbness

i know the pain will kick in sooner or later

hopefully i can take that really well.

just like all the other times

reality is something i needa face

ive seen other people do it, i can too (:

memories are still there

there's no use leaving them behind

gotta bring them along with the rest of my own forever

should just be thankful for everything

i was once the happiest girl alive & thats all i needa remember

even if this experience is a nightmare

its a beautiful nightmare .

-LUCY

to the love of my life;

mm

hard to start off

i have so many questions in mind atm hun

was it sumthing i did; sumthing you said

that lead us up til this point

well, its neither, sumtimes when two ppl get too close, friction just comes alongg

so i guess we made a really smart choice

to give it a lil rest and break

on a literall sense hun your my friend, jsut my friend atm

so i sat back and looked at yuu in a normal friends shoes

& surprisingly it felt peaceful, hun, we were both smiling, did yu realise?

we both wanted to move closer, made up random excuses to ofc.

when we said goodbye, i felt the closeness, the really familiar touch of yur skin

although i only went for the cheek, like a friend

but i couldn't really deny the connection i felt, i couldnt deny that familiar smell.

couldnt believe it but on the way back, i peacefully thought about our future

& it seemed closer than ever.

love ya

-LUCYbayy

normal day =D

todaaay was fun fun^^

totally failed my nueken ball (okay i know its wrong spelling) game TT''

i caught like one ball or sumthing in the whole game >.>

&& thanks to angelaa and lilly, hahaha everytime they saved me from the stupid ball

im sorry team i have like ball phobea LMAO i hate it when it shoots at me

but goooo team~~ ROTATE ROTATE (inside joke)

&& bec bec got a haircut today

its amazing cos like, my lil tomboy is growing up and caring about her hair finally ; D

so me& bibs MADE her get one :LLLL

it looks awesome. hehe.

.. i kept touching her hair and smelling it and overall pedo-ing it 8DDD

then wen we went to eat pho together hehehehe. and we shared a bowl so like, i went closerr.. and closerr... then, i accidently splashed chilli soup into her eye (=

(yep, we have THAT sorta relo =D)

haha & the other side of life..

these days i feel so numb

the feeling i feel; its not pain anymore; its just down down down

dont wanna think dont wanna act

afraid slowly i wont wanna care

every time i tell myself its okay, lucy its okay

but no, i wanna break down and chuck a tantrum and cry out loud

just wanna go back, if i made a mistake ill fix it

just wanna go back, if you spoilt me in the beginning i wont let myself get used to it

just wanna go back, if im too dependent ill be stronger

just wanna go back, if love is like this id love myself a lil more

如果愛是場誤會, 誰能讓我回到完美,

為了你我心力憔悴 每夜都守著淚,

如果愛是場誤會, 情願回到最初原位,

望著你我默默流淚,

最初的最美

-LUCYbayy

是你变了吗

just song lyrics.

is it friendship or love ?

these nights & days i miss 'you'

the you that used to miss me too..

真想和你聊一聊天

很想看看你温柔的容颜

多想听你说自己并没有变

很想看我们从前的照片

多想和你再接近一点

你现在的心是靠在谁的身边

是你变了吗 我的影子笑我的人好傻

是你变了吗 我已经跟不上你的步伐

是你变了吗 对你的感觉应该停止吧

已经不明白 你的想法

已经不再看见 你眼中的牵挂

-LUCYbayy

forever still.

mmm.

just a quick blog before i go swimming

the heat srsli gonna coook me alive soon so i gotta go cool down

but tbh, more than my arms and legs need to cool down

i needa cool down my emotions as well.

ive been wondering around, sumtimes happy sumtimes sad

so many ups & downs

then i wonder where all my peace and simple life went~

but i realised its not that hard to find back, my simple saturday, go for a swim; have heaps of food after that; sit for a coffee then go home for people who love me.

its that simple

but i havent tried to do those simple things in ages.

once upon a time, a girl meets the love of her life

she wants to love him forever, and she knows she will

but she gets sad when he's down

she's happy when she looks into his eyes

she's satisfied to the max just sitting beside him

she gets worried when he does stupid things or hurts himself

she gets angry when they make wrong choices together

she gets dissappointed when she really wants to see him, but he doesnt make an effort, just tells her he's not seeing her, and tells her sorry, so sorry.

she doesnt need the sorry

no matter what she loves him, always have and always will.

so sorry if she cant take all these emotions @ once, she needs a break. simply just to learn how to love sumone better.

she feels broken, so give her sumtime to repair herself.

but afterall, she loves him; forever still.

okay no more random life stories

off to the swimming poool with lar& kerry bumbum~~ <3

勇敢一点（：

现在的心情是什么呢？说实话我自己都在困惑。最近的我，生活的重心怎么一下子改变了这么多？我一直都想为自己而活。。 很好的朋友会告诉我 “ 你是被爸爸妈妈伤到了，才会把感情用的这么深，但一不小心就会被加倍的伤害'' 所以我学会不去risk love. 我学会不去完全投入什么。但是亲爱的你出现之后，我就忘了怎么去保护自己了，我忘了学会每一个故事都有结束的时候。



永远，宝贝你对我说的永远好美好美。。
所以我认输了，我不再坚持， 不再把你推开了。就像你一样，再也不会为了保护自己为故事画上句号




i guess my heart cant possibly break, when it wasnt even whole to start with。。
but with every kiss& hugg
your locking the pieces back together
<3

dont know.

我已经不知道要怎么去面对了。
心里好痛好痛，
为什么爱情不能简简单单的呢？
为什么我相信的在一夜之间就可以完全没有了呢
真的会很难过。
好像我的理智和心带着我走两条不同的路
而我，总是拿么傻傻的听着心里的声音。
我的爱， 多么努力地去爱，给得那么多，那么纯
又换来的是什么？
伤害自己， 好像我自己是不会痛的一样
我告诉你实话，是一种多么重的信任和respect for you
我为你说谎，只是多么的想保护你
这些你不会懂
不用你懂
连我自己都不懂。



okayyy, whatever i said above,
id eventually get over it
cos afterall its love..


when my world crashes down on me
the only way to get through it is to carry the weight mysellf


-lucy.

FLIP TO A NEW CHAPTER

mm~
just finished off doing 2 hours of commerce homework
wow. come to think of it, i havent been hw-ing for so long
recenlty there's been so many changes in my life
everything i thought i knew ,
my own sense of directions,
what to me was right
what to me was wrong
has all been shifted upside-down



but its never too late right
to start all over again
accept my own life, situation rents has set on me
to start accepting who i am
who i will be in time
to make the choices i think are right



thanQ to all that loveees me for who i always am inside
yous know who you are
<3



luccy just wants to start fresh& new
its time to move to a new chapter
be thankful bout lifee and stop complaining =)
this is all i got; but i can still give my best shot.


-LUCYbay

perfection

currently listening to RAINBOW by jay chou laa

fuck i lovee the lyrics

I SAWW JUSTIN YESTERDAY yo ^____^

ya this bit for yuu justin :LL

i swear u shouldve just missed the train and talked to luccy

but no~~~~~~ home was more attractive aye TT''

oh wellll. im still happy chappy i got to see my nerdddi bro

and its truee, your currently stessing bout yearlies? 8D

anyways. my current location is bluetooth net cafe again

zomg..... its.... 12.47am in the morningg

pulling all nighter with bay <3

lucy's feeling better la; need to say thanQ to bel

ty forr being there when i cried my eyes out

yup thanks for givinggg me tissues, i mean.. toilet rolls >.>

lovee yuu lovee yuu =D

im finally not feeling confused anymore

i just realised ive got the best anyone could ever ask for

and why not just be satisfied la =))

im truly madly deeply happy right now~

the love i give & recieve is so pure

when two people fight just cos they care way too much

everthing little thing the other person does feels like a life& death situation

yess; i guess thats the only reason why ive been doubting

cos this love is too perfect and flawless

<3

-LUCYbay

p.s- bay fell asleep on me = =''

loveyuubayy <3

dont really know what to do atm..

is craigyyy gonna read this? nah.. he dont go online atm

just blog feelings then

sorry bayy.. sent that txt to you today

i was acting tough on the phone again

inside i was breaking down

cant do it, i just cant. .

sometime i wanna be just myself,, i wanna stay silent,, i wanna get rid of the smile on my face and fall into grieve; silence; pain. just like that

but how could i do that to you bay.. thats why i sent that txt

yuu really might not understand

but i know deep inside you will

cos yeah, yur not JUST my babyy, your my soulmate.. my family.

i lovee you. forevr

sorrrry about this period

im too weak to take the pain parents set on me .

-LUCYbay

BREAKDOWN

lucy is sleeping like a child right now.
with a fist next to her face
this is bel at 2.28
sorry for writing in this space without permission.
lucy was going to blog but shes too tired
i think letting herself cry might have made her feel better

bel will be here all the way

goodnight bay

lalala.

本小姐现在在bel家里大吃大喝=DD

然后两个人还不睡觉。 aka - INSOMNIA = =''

不过没事，反正都是免费的（：

i might start living with belle .

i think daddy lets anyways,

gonna be so HECTIC i swear =)))

but。。

FUCK

I MISS CRAIGY 。。

this linee is for you hun (okay i understand that you dont know chink but TRY to read this =)

"看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着？''

im not used to this

@ nights like right now..

i should be covering you with a jacket gently

should be staring at your v. v peaceful sleeping face (ITS CUTEE ! )

@ nights like this ..

i need our usual goodnight speech

L: i love you bayy =)

C: me too =))

-both asleep-

i need your arm to lean on, thats my pillow for 14 days 。。 ><

我能自己走。。

但我的手心还有和你牵手后的余温，

就算放开

你给的感动再也不会离开我

十四天的点点滴滴

不想对你说谢谢，

因为你明白

我的爱

<3

goodnight bay

-LUCYbay

LAST DAY <3

0018 Bluetooth Cafe .

aye im gna make this blog different from the rest ;;

ill try not to crack jokes on how retarded and speddy lucy has been acting for the last 14 days..

the last 14 days have been the best holidays ive ever had in my last 16 yrs of life (Y)

336

thats the number of fucking hours ive spent with lucy NONE STOP =)

no exaggerations ive LITERALLY spent that long with lucy

and guess what ? ;D

im not sick of her even the slightest bit .

right now i have a billion thoughts running through my head ..

how do i leave lucys side after these 2 weeks ?

how can i survive normal life when right now i still want more of her even though ive practically been attatched to her for every moment in the whole holiday .

=( so sad .

BABEEEEE stop falling asleep on me =(

anyway i gotta thank you for being here for me all this time

ill never forget these moments ive spent with you

ill reminise this holiday and the billions of experiences we've shared together .

from having dinner on the top of centre point tower

to getting piss drunk in star city .

FUCK I LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHHH

baby dont worry ;;

im sure you'll survive when you get home .

ill still be here for you

its just that i wont be in arms reach 24/7

but im just a phone call away =)

you can lean on me cry on me sleep on me

sleep with me ;D and anything you desire .

i hope you've realised in these 2 weeks how much i fucking love you .

this trip has made us grow up so much more and we've learnt to survive off little money and have a fucking great time .

babe i can gurantee you that trips like this are only the beginning ;;

im ready to give you my all and so much more .

one day you'll probs have so many memories of being with me that you'll start forgetting some =(

babe ill show you things you didn't know existed.

ill take you to places you've never seen .

ill let you feel things that you cant imagine .

and most of all ill let you touch places nobody else is allowed to go ;D

woahhhhhh im slow at blogging or maybe i had too many cigarettes inbetween =LL its been half n hour since i started writing =LLL

anyway finishing this blog :

DAY 9: lucy got sick of a book store so she decided that a library was a better place to sleep in .

DAY 10: BLACK OUT

DAY 11: hangover . lucy looked half dead with a missing shoe . . again . . =\\\\

DAY 12: lucy uses xbox 360 controller as a vibrator =LLLLL

DAY 13: LUCY LOST HER FUCKING PURSE . but i still love her =)))

DAY 14: sorry nothing interesting has hapenned in the last hour =(((

but im gna fucking miss lucy so much. our last day of this what seemed like "never ending" holiday =) iloveyoulucy.

BTW im sorry lucy for punching you in the face . =L

i hope your cheeks okay . =)

it was an accident .

happy 1 month and 14 days and 1 hour and 6 mins .

loving you every moment .

=)

- craig .

LAST DAY <3

sooooo

this is the report from the currently dissapeared LUCYY =D

im finee everyonee

homeless for 14 days feels alright

(minus the sleeping at staircase bit =='')

but.....

its the last day tommorrow

after tomrw

its back to normal life again.

which, i admit, i miss, i need

but...

its easy to tear up just thinking about this holiday ending

its been so different, so difficult, so fun, so goddam addicting

when you've spent 24 hours with a person.. not exageration, i mean... LITERALLY 24 HOURS straight for 14 days..

how do yuu possibly seperate at the end?

when you've been spoilt to the max all this time

& by this i dont mean materialistically spoilt

cos hahahaha bay we both KNOW we've been pretty broke :LL

..when this all ends

who do i lean on when i need a cry?

who do i go to when im hungry (not that i will be when i go home)?

who do i hug to keep warm?

who's hand do i hold on to when my heals are making me trip....?

who do i call when the fatttttt assssss lady tried to hit me?

who do i go through life with day in day out

?

thanks bay, everthing, every word.

meh, i'll live i guess .. ):

"i love you but" (:

-LUCYbay

8 Days <3

WOAH

sorry the 8 day late reply babe =L dont kill me <3
anyway i am currently at tonys place =)))

I HAVENT BEEN HOME FOR LIKE A WEEK =OOOO

anyway just to let the whole bloody world know ive spent
EVERY

hour

minute

second

and moment WITH LUCY <3

well this is the life .
IM SO FUCKING TIRED T.T


lucy is currently staring at me lying on tonys couch =L
falling asleep like a baby.

LAST NIGHT she fell asleep on a staircase and so many people saw her...
at 3am..


and 4am ....

O_____________________O





OKAY for whoever actually reads this =L
in the last 8 days.........



DAY 1: lucy was being retarded

DAY 2: lucy was acting high =LL

DaY 3: lucy running around with one shoe.

DAY 4: lucy running around with no shoes.

DAY 5: lucy buys a new pair of shoes =L

DAY 6: lucy starts singing flow ridar O_____________________________O

DAY 7: lucy sleeps outside bookstore

DAY 8: lucy sleeps outside adult bookstore

and for the whole time i was right by her =DDD





NB: lucy & vivian are bitching behind me =L







i love lucy =)
this has been an unforgetable holiday that ill never forget .
THANK YOU BAY FOR EVERYTHING .
lucys waiting for me in bed . =L




GOOD NIGHT .

<3 craig .

HAPPY ONE MONTH <3

LOL

this is soo stupid.

im like using kelvin's comp atm to blogg =D

we're sleeping over at teddy kelvin's place ^^

HAPPY ONE MONTH BAY <3

ill keep the memories in my heart for long long long

you're something special baby.

had so much fun with you todayy

pancakes on rocks was yummmmy

i liked the pizza > actual pancakes though >:D

thankyou for the moviee

thankyou for the uber ASIAN karaokee

&& last but not least

thankyouu for the dinner at freakin CENTER POINT TOWER =D

omggg i felt fucking spoilt by you

we're like eating yummy food 200m above gound

and the restruant was rotating in a circle

the view was sumthing SEXYY

200 meters above ground i say it out loud

"I LOVE YOU CRAIG ;D"

& yup i fucking mean it.

okayy now im gonna go sleep hor horr

3 ppl squeeshing on the same bed T_T''

-LUCYbay

(currently lonely cos bay&kelvin are doing card tricks =.='')

karaokeee crazy

hor hor ^^
lucy had heaps of speddy fun today
we went kay at show
sumhow, lasted 6 hours =.=''
cept it was really HIGH and shitt
and i kissed cookie OH YEAH BABY =D
(oooops sorry craiggy bby, iloveeyoutoo!)

song dedi to to-be-hubby-maggie: SEXY LOVE.

:LL

& a note to ****:
i have no respect for you left after today.
learn to respect and be dedicated to one person when you even try a relationship.
yes you pissed me off
real bad (:

-LUCYbay

p.s - iloveeyoubby, thanks for the opera house exp today =D although we kinda got lost >.> but we made it at the end! <3

FOREVER

to someone special, i know you've been waiting for this
& lucy bee sorry that her answer is delayed.


oncee upon a time ...

i srsli wondered what that word means -forever.
everyone around me tells me its bs.
but i guess thats coz its my own signiture linee? :LL
so i got scared
basic human instinct- denial.
yes; i was in denial
i wanna believe that i dont believe.
& so thats the way it should be.

cos

everytime ive tried; ive proved my theory right
ive learnt the hard wayy.

but you camee along,
promised you could prove that theory wrong
i was in denial; all alongg my baby
"i love you forever"
thats a promise you made
a promise that was hard to take
how long does forever go forr...
one day; one week; one month; a yeaar?
babes.
forever literally means forever <3
which is whyy
i cant do it
i cant deny this very chance of forever with yuu.
so this is how my promise goes ,

i lovee you too, forever, literally.

& thats how the happy ending rolls ;]
the end.

-Lucyybay

ps. currently logging off now to see yuu soon bay; say it in RL =D

<3

aye ;;

so true babe, out of all the possible things you could sign up for online . . . .

blogger ? O_O

ANYWAY , here i go .

thanks for crashing mine at midnight tonight ,
a special someone gave me an explosive morning ;D

- which included freezing to death at cabra station at 6am =L

okay =L

dont know what the fuck to write so im gna dedi this to you <3

you know who you are =)

thanks for shoving your face infront of mine this morning when i woke up at 5 <3
thanks for poking me none stop during my little 3 hours of sleep <3
thanks for giving me a pork bun after freezing in station for an hour <3
thanks for humiliating yourself in the middle of central station ==" <3
thanks for screaming at my country road bag? <3
thanks for walking me home today <3

sorry if you folks dont get it ;;
she knows what im talking bout ;D





` ifuckingloveyoubay.
-craig .

28O9O9=D

My very first blogg yo ^___^

supposed to be doing a foooking assignment but instead wasting my time on this ><

not like anyone even uses blogger :P

which is awesome cause ill just write whatever i want =D

special thanks to someone todayy

well, not just todayy, more like all along

yea, so ill make this blogg a thanQ blog to my SPEDDY him. :L

i was all low and tired todayy, didnt even carry a smile on my face for most of the day

which wasnt really like mee ):

but, 1 hour of seeing him

&& we were already laughing our heads off at redfern

over.. NOTHING ==''

but still, babes you're my perfect drugg

one dose and im all smiling again ^^

so thanQ heaps to my personal happypill !

-LUCYbay