thanks !

listening to a really sweet song atm

"its amazing how you can speak right to my heart

without saying a word you can light up the dark

try as i may, i can never explain, what i hear when you dont say a thing

the smile on your face, lets me know that you need me

there's a truth in your eyes saying you'd never leave me

the touch of your hand, says you'll catch me wherever i fall ."

=DDD srsli just going ngawww to this song :P

so lemme just dedicate those lines to everyone thats been there all along

time to really put the past down

this time i know i can do it.

thanQ to all my bestest friends (including my hubbi)

love it how you guys just all send me those cute texts at the same time

cept they made my phone lagg :LL

& Gary bro sorrry i didnt even save your number & called yuu a stalker T.T

i lovee you all (:

and to my awesomest bunch at skool , woah skool finished already !

but you guys will be there all holiday im suree .

sorrrry for chucking a lil bitch these days ):

& refusing to go where we spend half our lifes together - the canteen :P

i just weren't feeling that well, but you guys got lucy back now (:

i'll be happier as the days go pass, time can heal anything

then eventually i'd be back to my crazy self, be ready for it ; D

`thats a [promise]

this blogg is dedicated to every single person thats been there all along; id be nothing without yous ;)

always be my baby

im currently listening to 'always be my baby'

&& trusting but finding the lyrics very ironic

one line i agree to though

time cant erase a feeling this strong..

just agreeing to that, the rest of the song is too.. confident haha.

missing you.

rest of forever.

life goes on

even after the heartbreaks

still gotta keep smiling right

shedding tears is okay

but its not okay to keep crying

holding on is okay

but its not okay to beg for it

getting drunk is okay

but its not okay to escape forever in that unrealistic dizziness

although right now

all i feel is numbness

i know the pain will kick in sooner or later

hopefully i can take that really well.

just like all the other times

reality is something i needa face

ive seen other people do it, i can too (:

memories are still there

there's no use leaving them behind

gotta bring them along with the rest of my own forever

should just be thankful for everything

i was once the happiest girl alive & thats all i needa remember

even if this experience is a nightmare

its a beautiful nightmare .

-LUCY

to the love of my life;

mm

hard to start off

i have so many questions in mind atm hun

was it sumthing i did; sumthing you said

that lead us up til this point

well, its neither, sumtimes when two ppl get too close, friction just comes alongg

so i guess we made a really smart choice

to give it a lil rest and break

on a literall sense hun your my friend, jsut my friend atm

so i sat back and looked at yuu in a normal friends shoes

& surprisingly it felt peaceful, hun, we were both smiling, did yu realise?

we both wanted to move closer, made up random excuses to ofc.

when we said goodbye, i felt the closeness, the really familiar touch of yur skin

although i only went for the cheek, like a friend

but i couldn't really deny the connection i felt, i couldnt deny that familiar smell.

couldnt believe it but on the way back, i peacefully thought about our future

& it seemed closer than ever.

love ya

-LUCYbayy

normal day =D

todaaay was fun fun^^

totally failed my nueken ball (okay i know its wrong spelling) game TT''

i caught like one ball or sumthing in the whole game >.>

&& thanks to angelaa and lilly, hahaha everytime they saved me from the stupid ball

im sorry team i have like ball phobea LMAO i hate it when it shoots at me

but goooo team~~ ROTATE ROTATE (inside joke)

&& bec bec got a haircut today

its amazing cos like, my lil tomboy is growing up and caring about her hair finally ; D

so me& bibs MADE her get one :LLLL

it looks awesome. hehe.

.. i kept touching her hair and smelling it and overall pedo-ing it 8DDD

then wen we went to eat pho together hehehehe. and we shared a bowl so like, i went closerr.. and closerr... then, i accidently splashed chilli soup into her eye (=

(yep, we have THAT sorta relo =D)

haha & the other side of life..

these days i feel so numb

the feeling i feel; its not pain anymore; its just down down down

dont wanna think dont wanna act

afraid slowly i wont wanna care

every time i tell myself its okay, lucy its okay

but no, i wanna break down and chuck a tantrum and cry out loud

just wanna go back, if i made a mistake ill fix it

just wanna go back, if you spoilt me in the beginning i wont let myself get used to it

just wanna go back, if im too dependent ill be stronger

just wanna go back, if love is like this id love myself a lil more

如果愛是場誤會, 誰能讓我回到完美,

為了你我心力憔悴 每夜都守著淚,

如果愛是場誤會, 情願回到最初原位,

望著你我默默流淚,

最初的最美

-LUCYbayy