you're out of the picture.

does crying help anything, anyone? all i get from doing so is swollen eyes for a day, a headache plus a heartache. i broke down that night, i know that i made myself do so, i needed to cry so badly. i can't live with recording all my emotions in a diary, or swollowing my love down. cos dear, i packed everything away in a box. two tickets, a shirt, couple of coins, two diaries and every piece of scratch that ever belonged to that word- 'us'. everything tangible, i can pack into a box, but do you remember our conversation? me"why dont you use this money yur spending on dinner and everything else, on a present for me instead? it'll cost yu less and i get to keep sumthing!" you"one day you'll know, presents can be chucked away, memories cant, i want you to remember." well guess what? i do, i remember every little detail between us. im trying my best to go forward, but i end up hurting everyone on the way. you're not the guy that loved me most, you're not the guy that i wished for. but you're the one that gave me so many of those memories you were talking about. thanks but no thanks. i tried to hate you, but i cant. i cant love you either. i know you're pretty inlove with gg so you will know this line right "chuck's a part of me, he'll always be." just change the 'chuck' to your name and thats how i feel. ive had enough of it though, ive had enough of toturing myself for you. so ive decided to chuck the box, and keep the memories locked away in a piece of forever. i realised that ive been stupid to think id forget you, ever, but what i can do is, keep the past, in the past. i hope you're happy, you seem to be =) i will be too, as much as it hurts me to say, the world opend wider with you out of the picture.

my tears ran out, so did the love.