new start or the past haunting?

been so long, havent felt butterflies
so this lil flutter, twist & turn in my stomach
is it catepillar finally gonna grow wings?
ive known who you are
its been long long long
but i finally realised what you are
how much you move me
how many feelings you make me feel
how i twist my fone around,
should i text, should i not
should i even believe my own feelings
the past haunts me
the future scares me
i wanna grab on to now & present beauty
but even that's slipping
tell me honey, if this may be a new beginning
& not ever the past growing bigger in me
you're unique, but you're also like the one from yesterday
you're special, but you're aslo my uncertanty.